i am a wife and a mother-to-be

it has been a very long time since i wrote for the last post... i want to update my blog, but really time restraints me.

i was actually busy with the wedding preparation, with the wedding itself and life as a wife and a mother-to-be... yes, i am a mother-to-be... and i like that fact very much..

actually, i was stunt to look at the pregnancy test result i did on my own sometime 4 weeks after my wedding, the test result was positive and i cried, not because i'm happy but i wonder whether me and ayang are ready to be mom and dad.. maybe physically we are ready, but how about mentally and financially? i was a bit worry during the first 2 months of my pregnancy thinking about this.

when we went back to batu pahat during thaipusam holiday, i had a chat with mak and told her that i'm quite worry about the baby, i'm afraid that he or she will not get enough from me and ayang. but mak told me that every child comes with a luck.. bak kata orang tua2, anak tu rezeki, jangan ditolak rezeki dan Allah sudah tetapkan semua perkahwinan dan anak akan ada rezeki sendiri, cuma perlu bersabar dan taqwa kepada-Nya. from that moment, i hold on to her words..

sometimes, i look at ayang's face and saw a bit of worries, i guess he did think the same as me.. when we went to bed, i always look at him and think how will i survive if anything happens to him.. i cannot imagine life without him now, he's everything to me.. Ya Allah, panjangkan lah umur suamiku, murahkanlah rezekinya, peliharalah kesihatannya dan jadikalah dia suami yang baik dan soleh yang boleh memimpin aku ke jalan yang benar.. amin.

yes, now i know the meaning of being a wife who really treasures the husband. hope our marriage will last long till death do us apart.