HOMETOWN THIS WEEKEND!!

i'm going back to batu pahat this weekend... yey!!
we'll celebrate mak and abah's anniversary and kak jun's birthday there...
i've ordered 25 cute cupcakes and fun is just around the weekend..
the sad part is that i've to finish marking all the student's tests and assignments at batu pahat, yeah right, like i will ever touch it!

i am in my second trimester

i'm officially in my second trimester of pregnancy... i'm lucky the baby is so strong even though i'm not... last wednesday, ayang and me went for the monthly check up.. the baby's features is complete now.. he or she is now 5 inches long.

i asked the doctor about the baby's gender, he laughed and said that it's too early to know. but i read in the book that ayang bought for me, we can know the baby's gender as early as 12 weeks, and i'm already in my 14th week now..! maybe it's because of the the machine, it's not as modern as we can find it in SJMC or Kelana Jaya MC. hahaha, we do our routine check up at this one klinik bersalin and pakar sakit puan at kampung subang, so, what do you expect, mazlina! hehe

never mind, the doctor said that we can know the gender in our next check up which will be on 25th april.. argh lambatnya mama nak tau baby girl ke boy... but i personally like if the baby is boy... but ayang prefer the baby to be girl.. we already have plans with the names, so, if it's a boy or a girl, then takdelah kelam-kabut nak cari nama.. hehe... i want to upload the photo of our baby, but mana ntah ayang letak, semalam dia amik from my handbag cakap nak scan... never mind, nanti dia dah scan, boleh la i upload the photo..

we haven't buy anything yet for the baby except of course the 'anmum' for the mama.. lucky that i'm not allergic of milk and i love milk so much... macam manala kalau pregnant tapi tak minum susu, mesti lembik je badan... we plan to buy all the baby stuff after we are sure about the baby's gender sebab kalau boy tak boleh lah nak beli baju pink kan? hehehe.. but mak said sometimes the doctor is so sure that the baby is boy, but keluar2 je girl pulak... hish, camne ni... takpelah, mak kata rezeki, boy ke girl dua2 pun anak jugak... hehe...

oklah.. i want to continue with my insurance law notes yang tinggal beberapa topic je tu.. tomorrow i will have 4 hours replacement class because i miss several classes with my insurance law student. so, hopefully i'll finish the syllabus by end of next week so that they have more time to study. kesian my students, dapat lecturer yang tengah preggy, asik nak mengamuk je dalam kelas... hahaha...

update on the last weekend's activity

last weekend was the best weekend ever because mak and abah were at kuala lumpur.. they arrived on saturday evening and we had dinner at mahathir's house. on sunday, we went to my cousin's kenduri aqiqah at bandar saujana putra. the foods were delicious, but we were wondering why there was no mutton served.. kata kenduri aqiqah.. hish, kempunan nak makan daging kambing ni... hahaha

after the kenduri, we went to visit abah's sister at puchong. recently, she had an operation due to complications of appendics. at her house, my other aunty fried keropok lekor and we had terengganu's keropok lekor at puchong.. hihi.. my mom decided to go to sungai buloh after that to visit mak tuk. we arrived at sungai buloh around 4.30 p.m and mak tuk made special jemput2 pisang for evening tea. we stayed there until dinner and we had rendang and papadum + plain rice for dinner.

that night, mak and abah slept at my house. mak puji cakap rumah bersih, tapi aku balas cakap "semua umar yang kemas mak, dia rajin sangat.." tapi memang ayang yang kemas pun. aku ni memerintah je kerja, kesian ayang... whenever i want to clean the house, he will scold me and ask me to rest. he does not want anything to happen to me and our baby. this is all because of the complications i suffered lately.

i had chances to chat with mak, we discussed about the due date of my pregnancy which will be on the first hari raya. mak said that she will be tired to take care of me and she thinks it would be a good idea to hire someone to take care of me and the baby during my confinement. mak had already asked kak milah to do it and and she asked for Rm700 for 1 month. it's quite expensive for me, but taking into consideration that it will be during the raya's month, mak said it is reasonable. yelah.. kenalah berjimat-cermat from now on.

right now, i'm busy finishing all the syllabus especially for my insurance law and business law classes. only 3 weeks left before the study week begin and my student will sit for their final exam on 20th april. i really hope that i will not suffer any symptoms for this 3 weeks because i had enough and i really want all the works to be settled before the exam. i'm praying for my health and hope everything will go as i plan it to be.. insyaAllah.

looking forward for tomorrow...

hari isnin lepas, aku call mak and tanye whether mak nak datang ke tak..? aku sebenarnya rindu sangat kat mak and abah... tapi nak balik batu pahat tu susah sikit sebab aku baru lepas bleeding and doktor suruh banyakkan rehat and that means no travelling...

so, the best way to lepaskan my rindu is to pujuk mak and abah datang sini.. hehe (saya memang anak yang bijak..) tapi mak cakap ada banyak wedding kat batu pahat and semua wedding tu kena attend sebab masa aku kawin tu, diorang datang... alamak, terkubur lagi lah niat aku untuk melepaskan kerinduan ini...

tapi semalam abah call rumah at about 8.30pm. dia kata, mak and dia nak datang hari jumaat malam.. yey!! bestnya... sayang abah and mak.. agaknya diorang ambik masa berhari2 untuk fikir sama ada nak spend time dengan we all suma ke tak.. hahaha...

yey.. looking forward for tomorrow, maybe abah and mak akan tido umah mahathir dulu hari jumaat malam, pastu baru tido umah aku hari sabtu malam... hahaha, sekarang ni gaduh pulak ngan mahathir... masing2 nak suruh abah and mak tido umah... kihkih.. takpe2, nanti anak aku dah lahir, hilanglah saham addin ngan adriana sebab en. mahali ngan pn. rukiah bakal dapat cucu baru yang sure comel macam mak dia jugaklah.. (perasan jap)..

tak sabar nya nak spend time wisely weekend ni... love u abah and mak...

weekend at denai alam...

hari ni semua kerja terbengkalai seperti minggu2 yang lepas... cita2 untuk menyiapkan semua kerja hanya tinggal cita2 kerana hari ini adalah ahad. selalunya ahad pegi cheras api minggu ni, aku spend weekend kat rumah aku, kat denai alam...

ahad memang sepatutnya hari untuk bersenang lenang di rumah, selepas sarapan semangkuk koko krunch, aku mengemas rumah sedikit2 walaupun doktor melarang aku membuat kerja berat2, tapi sempat aku vacuum rumah tadi...

ayang keluar dengan muiz and batod, pergi kenduri kawin khai.. aku tak ikut sebab konon2 banyak keja yang ingin dibereskan, last sekali, lepas je diorang pergi, aku boleh pulak tertidur kat couch depan tv.. hahaha, betul cakap ayang, aku memang takkan buat kerja aku..

sebenarnya lepas vacuum tu, aku terasa sakit2 perut, jadi aku baring kan diri kat couch, lepas tu aku sedar2 dah nak pukul 4.. hahaha, memang menarik aku spend time weekend ni... malam ni aku kena pulun siapkan lecture notes untuk esok... ayang pun dah janji nak tolong taip kan notes contract law aku.. nasib baik ada ayang ku yang tercinta... hehehe...

ok, nak start buat notes ni.. chaiyo2 mazlina...

perlukah aku merasa begini?

sedih, pilu, kecewa, sakit hati, pening, meluat, serabut...
semua perasaan negatif tengah bersarang dalam kepala aku sekarang.
yang mampu aku buat untuk mengurangkan perasaan2 di atas adalah dengan menulis blog ini.
walaupun aku rasa tak perlulah aku bercerita siapa atau apa yang telah menyebabkan aku merasa perasaan2 tersebut di atas.
yang penting aku harap perasaan tu semua dapat hilang dengan cepat sebelum sesuatu yang buruk terjadi.
aku baru sahaja menghadapi sedikit komplikasi pada kandungan ku pada hari selasa lepas.
dan aku juga berharap perasaan2 di atas tidak akan menganggu kesihatan aku dan kandunganku.
i need support, mak datanglah, titit rindu dekat mak.

i am a wife and a mother-to-be

it has been a very long time since i wrote for the last post... i want to update my blog, but really time restraints me.

i was actually busy with the wedding preparation, with the wedding itself and life as a wife and a mother-to-be... yes, i am a mother-to-be... and i like that fact very much..

actually, i was stunt to look at the pregnancy test result i did on my own sometime 4 weeks after my wedding, the test result was positive and i cried, not because i'm happy but i wonder whether me and ayang are ready to be mom and dad.. maybe physically we are ready, but how about mentally and financially? i was a bit worry during the first 2 months of my pregnancy thinking about this.

when we went back to batu pahat during thaipusam holiday, i had a chat with mak and told her that i'm quite worry about the baby, i'm afraid that he or she will not get enough from me and ayang. but mak told me that every child comes with a luck.. bak kata orang tua2, anak tu rezeki, jangan ditolak rezeki dan Allah sudah tetapkan semua perkahwinan dan anak akan ada rezeki sendiri, cuma perlu bersabar dan taqwa kepada-Nya. from that moment, i hold on to her words..

sometimes, i look at ayang's face and saw a bit of worries, i guess he did think the same as me.. when we went to bed, i always look at him and think how will i survive if anything happens to him.. i cannot imagine life without him now, he's everything to me.. Ya Allah, panjangkan lah umur suamiku, murahkanlah rezekinya, peliharalah kesihatannya dan jadikalah dia suami yang baik dan soleh yang boleh memimpin aku ke jalan yang benar.. amin.

yes, now i know the meaning of being a wife who really treasures the husband. hope our marriage will last long till death do us apart.