takut?? excited??

i'm in my 37th week of my pregnancy.. doktor cakap dah full term, so anytime from now i can deliver my baby... plan to take leave next week, end of next week actually.. the lecturer who will replace me pun dah report duty last tuesday.. hopefully everything will go as planned... but still, i'm not yet ready if the baby decides to leave "hotel mama" now.. so, hopefully my baby belum nak check out lagi, tunggu dah sampai bp baru check out ye baby mama sayang ni...

i already experienced mild contractions.. tu nak jalan pegi kelas pun dah slow je, but mak and ramai lagi suruh jalan kaki jugak banyak2 so that nak bersalin senang... ikutkan je lah... this week mood mengajar tu dah hilang, yang ada cuma mood nak cuti, mood nak hybernate and mood for motherhood... but it will happen only end of next week when i'm off to bp...

baby already take his position (head's down).. so, sekarang tengah berdoa banyak2 baby tak pusing2 lagi.. puasa pun belum buang lagi; alhamdulillah Allah memberi kesihatan yang baik dan tenaga yang cukup untuk berpuasa, tapi Dia juga Maha Mengetahui betapa laparnya hambaNya ini tatkala jam menjangkau pukul 5-6 petang...

i spent my merdeka holiday at bp.. sebab ada checkup kat putra hospital.. next checkup will be on 12 september.. was so happy dapat buka and sahur with my family.. dapat makan banyak makanan sedap2.. we all also celebrate abah's birthday.. all the family were there, mak long and kak im's family pun ada.. it was fun, but because it is ramadhan, i was too tired to gossip2 and berbual2 lama with mak long and mak.. too tired that night.. owh yea, lupa, sempat jugak belajar buat onde2 gula melaka dengan mak... so, lepas ni kalau agak2 teringin nak makan onde2 boleh dah buat sendiri.. hehehe...

inter part mooting competition will take place this weekend.. kesian diorang, because banner interpart kena bakar.. yang kena bakar part dacing je pulak tu, maybe ada orang tak gemar gambar dacing kat banner tu, tapi xpelah, in a way it was a good publicity.. hehe.. tapi still membazir je keluar duit mahal2 lepas tu ada pulak orang dengki...

ayang sekarang ni dah balik awal selalu sebab bulan puasa, tak pernah lagi tak buka puasa takde ayang.. tapi start 13 september nanti, ayang dah kena buka puasa sorang2, sian dia.. nanti bukan dia yang nangis kena buka puasa sorang2, aku yang nangis sebab terpaksa tinggalkan dia buka puasa sorang2, alahai sedihnya...

sekarang ni perasaan excited plus takut dah bercampur aduk, excited because i will welcome my baby to the world anytime now and takut for the pain during delivery of course... dah lah aku memang jenis tak tahan sakit.. sakit sikit pun dah nangis, macam mana lah nak tahan sakit melahirkan anak.. uish.. down deep my heart, i'm hoping that i will be one who doesn't feel a lot of pain during delivery but reality always wake me up.. memang aku akan tempuhi sakit nak beranak tu bila2 masa from now...

i always hope that ayang will be by my side during the delivery, takut2 dia tak sempat balik, baby dah lahir je, mesti i will be alone dalam labor room.. selalu cakap kat baby, kalau nak lahir, tunggu abah dia ada dulu.. hehehehe.. hope it works..

ok peeps.. have other things to settle.. nanti mungkin kat bp, i will update more...

lawasia, ante-natal class and ramadhan....

it's 6.45 pm, at my office now.. just finished classes with the accounting student for company law.. am too exhauted because had to give two lectures in a row...

ayang just texted, he'll be home late tonight; again..! never mind la, normal kan for those working at zaid ibarahim... i decided to stay at the office for a while to arrange my notes and browsing the net.. sat lagi boleh beli nasi goreng daging merah, tapau bawak balik rumah...

it's been a while since i last updated the blog, too many works to do laaa... a bit relieved because lawasia mooting had finished; but frankly, i was not involved in the training, cuma datang sekali-sekala.. i supposed because i already did my task on the working paper and applying for the budget and other logistic things... hehe

talking about the lawasia mooting, i am proud for the teams (all four of them); especially the junior teams who did very well despite the fact that it were their first time moot! uitm ended up 3rd, 4th and 5th place... even though we are not the first or second, i'm proud because out of 5 teams eligible for final round, 3 teams were from uitm.. congratulations again to the team... and special thanks to dr.irwin who without fail trained the team with all his heart and soul... i cannot imagine mooting club without dr.irwin... this credit should also be given to ummi who helped a lot too, she is the future face of the moot club i supposed...

last week also, i went to demc ante natal class held at concorde hotel, shah alam.. ayang and I went there to get a big picture of what is going to happen at labour room and to gain knowledge about delivery and so on... it is a good class and i recommend every first time mom-to-be to attend the class, it is good for you to know especially on what to expect during pregnancy and delivery and breastfeeding... they also taught on breathing techniques and some interesting exercise that pregnant mom should do...

ok la, enough for now... opps, forget to wish you all selamat berpuasa... tahun ni saya berpuasa dengan suami tercinta.. and talking about puasa, my DD would be just approximately a month from now.. wish me luch peeps...

saya juga mintak ampun dan maaf kepada semua jika saya ada membuat sebarang kesilapan atau kesalahan.. bermaaf-mafan sebelum puasa ni afdhal orang kata agar puasa dan amalan baik kita di bulan mulia akan diterima oleh Allah.. amin...

DONUT!!!

it's sunday, 11.43pm and suddenly i'm craving for donut! baru je lepas nangis kat ayang mintak dia carikkan donut... tapi aku puntak tau mana dia nak carik donut malam2 ni... tapi aku sangat2 teringin nak donut!!

kenapalah big apple ke, J.Co ke or krispy kreme or at least dunkin donut tak bukak 24 jam! wish they are considering to open any outlets for 24 hours so that a 7-and-a-half-months pregnant mother like me who is eventually craving for donut can satisfies her crazy craving mood!

haih!!

esok start kelas balik, agak boring jugak la! hahaha.........

good luck to the kiddies...

uitm mid semester holiday is about to over, and can't believe that time goes by so fast... i'm in my 32-33 weeks now and it is about 6-7 weeks more for the D date.. i'm actually nervous but for the time being, i have to ignore the feelings first and focus on finishing the syllabus as many as i can... i planned to finish my slides during this break, but plan is just plan and my wish do not come true.

now, the uitm mooting team for lawasia is busy training for the competition which will be held next weekend... so far, all the administrative work (hotel booking etc) have finished. ummi and dr.irwin is busy with the practice. i help sometimes but both of them spent a lot of time with the kiddies, preparing them for the battle.. hehe... i cannot come at night because ayang always come back home late, and i'm afraid to drive alone especially during this crucial period of time

thanks to mr.rajesh as well because he also helps these two-three days. dr.irwin thinks that the moot club should appoint him as one of the advisors, so that he can help. and i also think that he should be appointed, i'll talk with dr.bahrin next week for his appointment.

so, just want to wish the best of luck to the mooting teams, insyaAllah, we'll bring back the national title and represents malaysia for international round...

today's update....

semalam ayang bawak dinner kat tony roma's... my baby and me had a lot.. (kickin' shrimp, chicken salad and chocolate avalanche) hahaha, makan macam dah setahun tak makan... ayang macam biasela, mesti order lamb chop well done.. lepas makan, we all terus balik, tapi on the way to car, i felt a bit of contraction, but it lasts within 10 seconds je, lepas tu takdela lagi...

and disebabkan makan ice cream kat tony roma's tu, my flu belum baik2 lagi, malam masa nak tido, ayang marah sebab makan ice cream.. hahaha, padan muka saya... anyway, semalam memang tak dpt tido langsung, sebab my throat sakit sangat2, sekejap2 terjaga and tengok ayang tido best je... takpela, kesian dia penat, lagipun dia dah belanja makan besar.. hikhik...

actually, i have class at 2pm, but now tiba2 nak update blog sebab sekejap lagi tutorial je, soalan tutorial pun dah ready... i'm thinking of finishing my slides while the students are doing their exercises, baru sem ni nak buat slide for business law because past semsters, i only based my lecture with my notes that i printed for my students, but this time around, i think i'm going to give lecture by showing them power point slides, already finished 3 lectures and i found that it works!

ok peeps.. only that to update, this evening nak pegi wash and blow my hair and ahead to selangor food fest at sacc.. anyone nak join?

mood swing.. lalala..

sejak akhir2 ni, aku sangat sensitif... selalu inginkan perhatian, inginkan layanan istimewa dan kalau boleh, inginkan segala2 nya untuk aku... everything is about me and just me... aku rasa aku mesti dilayan macam puteri raja dan dihargai setiap masa...

tapi tak semua orang boleh layan aku... semua ada tanggungjawab masing2...

tanggungjawab kerja aku pun kena dibereskan... koordinator program request kalau boleh aku habiskan silibus sebelum aku maternity leave.. aduis, nasib baik jugak jadual dan beban tugas semester ni tidak terlalu berat, alhamdulillah...

sekarang ni aku tengah selsema dan batuk tahap tak best punye, badan pun macam lemah, hari ni aku mc sebab nak berehat je kat rumah... ye, aktiviti hari ini ialah tidur dan tidur selepas makan ubat batuk yang kuat... aku cume risau kalau2 sakit ni akan effect baby, mintak2 la my baby strong, bukan macam mama die...

sekarang dah pkl 8.30 malam and ayang masih lagi belum balik, maybe tengah jem kat highway, ayang sekarang pun selalu balik lambat, banyak sangat keja, die selalu mengadu tapi kadang2 aku bagi support, kadang2 aku marah die balik lambat.. ntahlah, mood aku ni swing2, sometimes i can be a perfect wife yang memahami tuntutan kerja suami ku tapi kadang2 aku terlalu mementingkan diri sendiri dan menganggap yang die sengaja balik lambat sebab dah tak nak tengok aku yang semakin hari semakin membesar dengan jaya nya.. hahaha..

inilah yang aku boleh katakan bahawa mood pregnant woman ni selalu berubah2.. sekejap2 baik, bila angin datang semua orang aku nak marah... tapi yang selalu menjadi mangsa kemarahan aku ialah ayang tercinta.. kesian dia, betul cakap dia, nasib baik dia mempunyai tahap kesabaran yang tinggi, dengan kerja lagi, dengan melayan kerenah aku lagi...

ya Allah, aku berharap agar Engkau bahagiakan lah rumahtangga aku ini dan jauhkan sebarang malapetaka dan bencana menimpa keluarga yang baru kami bina ini... semoga dengan kedatangan ahli baru nanti, aku akan lebih ceria dan lebih tabah menempuh kehidupan... amin...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAZLINA!

it is 12.19am, 6 mei 2009... it's my birthday today... i turn 27 today.. syukur alhamdulillah, i'm a year older now... semoga Allah memanjangkan umur saya, so that i can live to see my children grow up, to love ayang more and more each day, to take care of my parents and of course to serve my beloved students.. hihi..
i love to live with the facts that i'm celebrating my birthday as a wife to the most dearie person in my life and as a mother-to be too...
ayang brought me to a nice dinner just now...
mak and abah also just called... wishing me my birthday...
ayep also called...i'm glad they still remember my birthday... and maybe that's because i never forgot theirs as well..
we'll spend this weekend at mahathir's house, to celebrate my birthday, addin and nana's birthday, mother's day and also sis and abang haridan's anniversary..
we'll be having so much fun and laughter this weekend...